This week I’ll be mostly waffling on, without interruption, and you’ll have no choice but to let me. I know this is annoying, but tough, this is my blog website after all :-3.
Anyway these past few weeks have been rather stressful, to say the least. Mainly I find myself now having so much work to do within a short time frame I feel like I can’t squeeze myself within this narrow frame. Only finding out there there were more problems that you have to resolve the deeper you go into handling your own data. This ultimately can be very depressing when one is trying to progress into the final stages within the next two months or so. It becomes even harder when the wider world affects you in many many ways, probably to an extent more than you’d anticipate or expect.
Of course I’m referring to the events that unfolded in Paris on Friday 13 November 2015, events which shook the world, but also led various parts of it into deeper and darker paths. The politics of which I shall avoid, but what I will mention is the aftermath: the inevitable self proclaimed savants with omniscient powers. Otherwise known as the bigots who would find any excuse to prop up their own cowardly causes, all done without realising the hypocrisy of such statement of words, to these people I sigh and get continuously irritated. If it weren’t for those who show compassion, solidarity and comedy in the face of these ghastly events I wouldn’t be able to bear the lack of comprehension of these bigoted people.
You might be asking, “What do you mean by a lack of comprehension?”. Well, I do not claim to be one of all the answers, nobody will ever be able to lay down such claims. However, everyone should have the ability to comprehend the basics of humanity, how we and our society have evolved and grown, learn from our mistakes and above all understand how we humans are special but also realise that there is a whole Universe out there. Comprehend that this Universe gave us life, also comprehend that it doesn’t know, therefore even care that we exist on this rocky planet floating around in the Orion Arm of the Milky Way.
I get annoyed very easily about some really trivial things, and sometimes I just get so overwhelmed I have to retract myself from what I’m reading or the situation I am in. It’s only really the past year I’ve started to notice myself and my own actions, and the fact I annoy others as a result of my own annoyance. However, this is a different matter, so many are ignorant to such comprehension of humanity and its own fragile existence but sadly not many are willing to learn to comprehend this. Forever remaining blind to everything other than their prejudices, and the people and arguments that (don’t really) support them.
There are times like these when I just want to say, “Fuck this! I want to escape, I want to run away somewhere and hide. Or maybe do or see something new.”. I apologise for the profanity, but running away from it all will always seem appealing to me. I am a complicated human being. As many of us are, but like I said, this past year has made me realise how complicated I really am myself. Events like these will always make me depressed and sad, but, I know there are lots of good people out there who do comprehend. Knowing this makes me happy in that all is not yet lost.
Although, aside from these very sad times. I did manage to have some fun times as well. This past week I visited my girlfriend in Germany, and we both went to a comedy show based of a radio podcast called ‘Radio Nukular’. Of course, this was all in German and riddled with jokes that only fans of the podcast would know inside and out. I managed to string random words I did know together and formed incomplete pictures as to what was happening, but it was difficult. Despite the language barriers though I had a great time, the atmosphere and energy was impressive and seeing my girlfriend enjoy herself as well helped boost my mood ten-fold. What I do not share very often with a lot of people is that I do get sad very easily, so I am quite vulnerable now it’s open to those who’ll happen upon this post. I also can’t handle certain situations well without being overwhelmed. I’d say though that if it weren’t for my girlfriend this past year opening my eyes to many things, I wouldn’t have realised this.
So to Hannah, if you’re reading this, I say thank you for everything. I’m pretty terrible I know. But thank you.
Okay, well apart from going slightly off tangent, I’ll end my random ramble, rant, thingmybob here.
Until next week astrogeeks!